When My Grandmother Was Rachel
And she called his name Joseph;
and said, The Lord shall add to me another son. (Genesis 30:24)
She named her ghost child “more,”
and every babe she held in her arms
was more more more more more—
Behind each name lurked another name,
between her arms, the void. She knew
how easy it was to disappear. Her father
was taken for seven years,
then returned as someone else.
Voracious, she gorged
on mandrake root, communed
with the dead. Gulped
wells dry, only to cry them full again.
She turned her husband away. Buried
herself by the side of the road. Refused
to come home, as she climbed, step by step,
to hammer at God’s door.