Night-Walking the Camino de Santiago
While she sleeps, I carry her back
to where we began two days ago. I snore
in her ears as we cross footbridges
so rushing waters won’t wake her, hum
lullabies as trucks pass, wait in alleys
for taverns to empty—to postpone
our arrival at The Cathedral. When
she says, “This pasture, this cow,
looks familiar” and “Haven’t we picked
this orange grove?” and sniffs her clothes
as we approach the fishery and asks me to smell
mine, I praise her auspicious prophesies,
“Such vivid dream-visions,” I tell her, awe
shivering my voice, “they manifest before us!”
My child’s feet are mere sores, shoulders
furrowed by her pack’s straps—still, she is
not ready to complete her Camino. Santiago,
how will I know when? Such is the father’s burden:
to continue on and backwards and again
wait, worrying I am doing her harm,
that I have missed Santiago’s one sign.