Half-Ghosts
In last evening’s ticks of dusk, police pulled three juveniles from
the Confederate cemetery, where they’d knocked over
some grave markers and graffitied others with an odd mix
of swastikas and peace signs. In the half-light left,
their damage was hidden, but its shadow lingers between
the oaks, sharp burn of tobacco smoke in the air, heavy feet
dragging uncut grass like the retreat of unbroken infantry, firing
backward as they go. Battlefield or cemetery, the living
demand more fear than the dead. They are the ones who appear
out of corridors we thought abandoned, wearing faces
we’ve lost the name to. There are always birds,
dusty veterans, pecking around that graveyard, who fly
in the wolf-hour between sunset and full dark to perch
inside bodies slowly claimed by night, lost to us
like friends who suddenly cross the threshold of a new faith
and now only speak a language we no longer share.
The ones we lose are out there without us, living in bags
of slowly wrinkling skin, lost in the dry grass
where wind takes itself to lie down and gaze full-faced
into the flat blue plane of sky, time’s fields of dust
shifting between them. They chorus behind us,
those half-ghosts, silences, memories abandoned
like some nomadic tribes I’ve heard of who left
the ones too weak to continue, settling them
on an ice floe or in a pocket of shade, then walking away
from their fading voices, even their names.
Yet they return. Tell me you have not seen the gray,
heavy face of one you knew years before,
tried not to recall the feel of hands now creped
by skin thin as paper as they picked over
lettuce and sweet potatoes. Halfway down the cereal aisle,
you recall a bruised Volvo, the smell of the house
where you slept in those days, skin that smelled of burned oil,
all returning with the note of uncertainty that shades
every sentence that long-ago voice said. That note echoes
as you pay and walk from the store, still amazed
you can enter your past as easily as you open
an unlocked gate, then walk back into this life,
your half-ghosts quieted so abruptly you understand
you are neither fully haunted nor forgiven.